21 years ago...he promised Til death do us part. He promised Forsaking all others. He promised for better for worse. Yet he broke all those promises and then some. And here I am stupidly weeping because I honored my vows til the bitter end. We are STILL legally and technically married for a few more days...but here we are.
My biggest road block is that in spite of all the crap and all the fights, I still love him madly deeply. He has been in my world since I was 16. It's like losing a limb. It's unimaginable to me. So this is so very hard for me.
People tell me I will find someone new and I just don't see how. I don't know that I could ever love anyone the way I loved him. I don't want to start over. I can't bring the mess I am into another person's life. He was my one great love. It's devastating to know I am not his. Because he made me feel I was and what we had was unbreakable. Yet he did.
