Have you seen this face?
Dig deep in your mind.
Has anybody seen that little girl of mine?
She was always a rover,
But I'm afraid to say she's strayed
Too far this time.
Been a long time since this adventure loving, trusting, happy girl existed. She got tangled up in what she thought was the love of her life. Instead, she wound up a shell of her former self. Afraid to trust, Afraid to love. Becoming agoraphobic and overly stressed thinking about maybe dating again. Finding herself turning down an offer to have coffee or dinner in favor of a lonely night with her dog. Even her neighbor had to knock on her door several times over 9 months before she finally let him in...and only because he offered to help with a window. After he was done she quickly ushered him out before he could ask her to coffee or the community picnic again. But then he told her he was moving and gave her his phone number should she require help again.
She stared at that piece of paper for days before she finally put it in her phone. And another few days before she texted him to say that she thinks he has a bird nest in his dryer vent. That was subtle...no?
But this girl in the picture? She was in this shop in Key West with friends and he was the clerk. He was from Australia and wanted to know if she wanted to go for drinks. She would have gone if they weren't on their way back to Delray Beach and when he asked for a picture with her she obliged. She was open and friendly and people liked her. I want this girl back. The girl that didn't yet have her heart shattered by betrayal or her trust broken by lies and gaslighting. Who wasn't manipulated into thinking she was the problem and that she wasn't good enough. I need to find her again so that I can love again.
If you find her, tell her to call me. I miss her.
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