Its been a year since we moved out of the townhouse and in a few weeks it will mark a full year in the condo. I remember him in the hallway at the courthouse saying I would need him for help with Dana and how I was only ever after his money...which is funny because he didn't have any.
I have come so far and the past couple of weeks I have been fiercely independent and found solutions to our problems. I re-titled Dana's car, got insurance, helped her get her license renewed, worked out the issue with her laptop, became the hort advisor for my HOA and colluded with Dana's boyfriend to surprise her with the ring he bought her and...once again, secured her financing for school...without any help! In the coming weeks I will help her get ready to return to school and we will do it together.
The other night Dana witnessed my new coping skills after a stressful day at work and said..."Look at you using healthy coping mechanisms!" (Because for so long she watched me break down so many times from the stress I was under and felt how I just couldn't handle any more mental stress). Earlier tonight she opened up about how I couldn't handle the smallest of things and would shut down or fly off the handle because I was so overloaded. How she felt my reactions didn't fit her crime. She has a better, healthier version of her mom back and I am glad she sees the work is paying off.
A year ago I was scared out of my mind. Now? Im just mindful of my actions and reactions so that i am the best version of myself I can be.
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